Showing posts with label patience. Show all posts
Showing posts with label patience. Show all posts

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

seeing growth in this season

my boys love their rocket swing, as they like to call it. 
though, usually they don't play on it unless someone big is around to push them "up, up, high, to the top of the tree!"
sadly, mommy can't play outside all day.
so, we devised a new way for them to swing on their own.  





last time i took swinging pictures  was at the beginning of the summer.  i was being convicted of my sinful anger.  things were busy, and i was letting my emotions get away from me, allowing them to get out of control.  

now it's fall, and it's good to look back and see how God has used the past few months to grow me in this area.  

i will always be a bit of an emotional person.  that's part of who i am, made by God.  (yes, i'm the one who cries over the slightly sad tv show, even when walking in half way through and not really understanding the plot.)  
but my personality is never an excuse to disobey my Lord.  and He is so good to point that out to me in a blunt yet loving way.  and even, to help me correct it.

it's taken time.  it always takes time to grow.  and while in that growth, it can feel like it's taking so very long.  but when we look back and can see how far the Lord has brought us, we know that's it's been time well spent learning to walk closer with Him.  

i have fought, and continue to fight, by the Holy Spirits power, to control my anger and keep a gentle spirit.  i am learning to keep biting words out of my mouth and use kind (though, sometimes firm) words, even when the situation is stressful or a bit crazy.  

praise the Lord for His work in me and His promises to continue teaching and molding me until His return or calling me home...

Philippians 1:6
"For I am confident of this very thing, 
that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus."

look back in your own life.  how have you seen God grow you this summer?  have you stopped to praise Him for the work He's been doing in your life?  what area's needing growth has He been pointing out to you lately?  

Friday, June 8, 2012

back and forth...

Nicholas built the boys a swing.  it's nothing fancy.  a wooden circle with a rope strung through it, hung from the tree in our backyard.  but boy, do they love it. 

i have been called outside more times than i can count in the past couple days, the boys begging me to push them "up, up high, to the top of the tree!" 

there are so many things that i need to get done around here.  boxes to unpack, painting to finish, and the regular cleaning and cooking on top of it all.  

but how can i resist those eyes?

and in these many hours of playing, all of this swinging has been convicting to me.  i have been a bit back and forth, kind of up and down myself.  emotions have flared and tempers have fizzled up these last couple weeks.  call it a lack of sleep, call it a touch of stress, whatever you call it, i've come to admit that it's sin. 

maybe you are thinking "oh, i don't want to hear about sin while i'm looking at pictures of these bright sunshiny little faces."  but these little faces are a big part of why i need to voice my short comings.  they need to know that life will always have it's ups and downs, yet as a child of the Lord God, i am always called to live in a way that will bring honor to Him.  there is never a good excuse for me blowing up, or even for getting bent out of shape.  sin is sin, and i need to admit my sin and seek forgiveness from those that i wrong.  

it's hard to apologize to your kids.  to stop, come down to their level, look past their wrongs and ask them to forgive you for your anger.  but it must be done.

ultimately i am accountable for my own actions.  i need to be right before God.  and i'm called to train them up in the way they should go (Prov 22:6), and told to discipline them in the Lord (Prov 19:18).  part of that training comes into play if i mess up when i mess up. they need to see what it looks like to make it right.  

so when someone gets angry, we stop.  we calm down and we talk about how unrightous anger is sin (unrighteous anger is because i feel wronged, as opposed to righteous anger resulting from me seeing God being wronged).  we ask for forgiveness from those we have offended.  and we put it behind us, moving forward with the right attitude in place.  

and now, i spend much of the day, asking that i might not sin in the first place.  that i would learn from my past wrong choices and choose to remain in control of my attitude, depending on God for the strength to get through each moment.  prayer will change things...

...and so will the Word.
if i can find where my tape got packed, we have a bunch of verses to hang on the kitchen wall.  

Proverbs 19:11 
"A man's discretion makes him slow to anger,
And it is his glory to overlook a transgression."

Proverbs 17:27
"He who restrains his words has knowledge,
And he who has a cool spirit is a man of understanding."

Proverbs 16:32
"He who is slow to anger is better than the mighty,
And he who rules his spirit, than he who captures a city."

Proverbs 20:3
"Keeping away from strife is an honor for a man,
But any fool will quarrel."

Proverbs 29:11
"A fool always loses his temper, 
But a wise man holds it back."

oh, how i love these little ones.  even when it's hard. 
and, i bet God says the same thing about me lately.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

plumbers and penguins

had an issue with a basement drain today.  ended up with my washing machine emptying it's self all over my laundry room floor.  and i have an amazing husband (with a super understanding boss) who spent a long lunch break cleaning it up while i made lunch, fed boys, cleaned boys and put boys into bed for nap time (in which no naps were taken).

while it wasn't fun, i wouldn't say that it ruined my day.  these things happen and who gave me the right to throw a hissy fit when the unpredictable happens?  no, i think it better to consider it a trial like in the book of James.  maybe the mess was for no other reason than to teach me patience and remind me of how thankful i am for my darling husband.

the boys found the 2 inch flood quite fascinating, not really understanding the problem with water all over the basement floor.  in fact, they were super excited about the plumber coming over, and even though i kept them upstairs & out of the way, whenever 1 of 2 gentlemen plumbers would pass through the living room, Isaac would bombard him with introductions, including ages, questions about tools, the mess, or what they were going to do about it.  oh, are they going to be excited when the plumber is back tomorrow to fit the sump pump and finish up.

after all that craziness, i found myself back on track with a normal day of little boy fun.  there was even an impromptu penguin procession from the basement to the bedroom.  i managed to catch a few seconds on my phone.  notice the tiny steps and little wings.  so very penguin-esque!


Friday, March 12, 2010

oh, my boys...

so we ran to the store this morning to get diapers and some rash cream.
i picked out some things and turned around to put them in the cart and found the little man standing in his seat...

the seat belt is still on...
and here is my big boy trailing along...

one foot on the ground, one foot on the "step" he insisted on walking the length of the building like this...

i've learned that even the simplest outings take a watchful eye and a heap of patience.