1 Timothy 4:6
"In pointing out these things to the brethren, you will be a good servant of Christ Jesus, constantly nourished on the words of the faith and of the sound doctrine which you have been following."
"Your words were found and I ate them, And Your words became for me a joy and the delight of my heart; For I have been called by Your name, O Lord God of hosts."
I know this. I've known it for years and years. The Word should be my sustenances. In it i will find strength and peace and be filled. my day goes smoother and i am not ruffled by every little bother when i am nourished by His Words.
yet, as a mommy of littles, it's hard to get there. my day seems to slip away with every school lesson, with every book we read, with every meal cooked, with every load of laundry washed, with every temper tantrum i have to correct. and even though the day feels so very, very long, before i turn around, it's gone. and i fall into bed without a
maybe you sit and read my words and shake your head and say "tisk, tisk! that girl! she should know better!" trust me, i know that i should know better. but i'm being honest here.
there are many more weeks than i would like, where sit down in the church sanctuary and realize that the last time i sat and soaked up these Words was 1 week ago in that same seat. it's a painful realization. and i hate it. and yet, i'm being honest here. because if i'm not honest, if i smudge the facts and say that it only happens "sometimes" rather than telling you truthfully that it's happened nearly every week this month, then nothing is going to change.
why? why is it so hard to find time for the Thing i love most? why does it seem as though there are a million little things that come up and i let them take priority over what i know needs to come first?
i know that my flesh is wicked and selfish. that my flesh would rather work on a project, or just finish this one thing, or just sit and do nothing for a few minutes. and that is a battle that i have to fight daily.
but, i wonder, if sometimes there isn't more to it than just my flesh.
maybe the reason mommies of young children have trouble finding time to be in the Word daily is because Satan works so hard to keep it that way. at a stage when our kids are little sponges and soak up everything we say and do, maybe he works to keeps us from The Thing that would bless us with patience and peace. and maybe he tries to prevent us from devouring the Scriptures so that we will not speak forth The Lords Words, but will instead have nothing but short tempered words. maybe he works so hard to keep us from the Word, so that we will not influence our children toward the truth of the Lord.
if that is the reason, we need to fight harder! we need to fight our lazy flesh that thinks a nap would be more helpful than the life giving Words of Scripture. we need to fight our cunning and ruthless enemy by letting go of all the little things that get in our way and turn to the only thing that can really give us strength and peace.
we need to fight to consume His Holy Book so that these little sponges that we live so closely with will hear only blessings and praise coming out of our mouths.
just maybe, we need to act more like warriors and ready ourselves for battles with this ruthless foe.
"Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of His might. Put on the full armor of God, so that you will be able to stand firm against the schemes of the devil. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places."