Nicholas built the boys a swing. it's nothing fancy. a wooden circle with a rope strung through it, hung from the tree in our backyard. but boy, do they love it.
i have been called outside more times than i can count in the past couple days, the boys begging me to push them "up, up high, to the top of the tree!"
there are so many things that i need to get done around here. boxes to unpack, painting to finish, and the regular cleaning and cooking on top of it all.
but how can i resist those eyes?
and in these many hours of playing, all of this swinging has been convicting to me. i have been a bit back and forth, kind of up and down myself. emotions have flared and tempers have fizzled up these last couple weeks. call it a lack of sleep, call it a touch of stress, whatever you call it, i've come to admit that it's sin.
maybe you are thinking "oh, i don't want to hear about sin while i'm looking at pictures of these bright sunshiny little faces." but these little faces are a big part of why i need to voice my short comings. they need to know that life will always have it's ups and downs, yet as a child of the Lord God, i am always called to live in a way that will bring honor to Him. there is never a good excuse for me blowing up, or even for getting bent out of shape. sin is sin, and i need to admit my sin and seek forgiveness from those that i wrong.
it's hard to apologize to your kids. to stop, come down to their level, look past their wrongs and ask them to forgive you for your anger. but it must be done.
ultimately i am accountable for my own actions. i need to be right before God. and i'm called to train them up in the way they should go (Prov 22:6), and told to discipline them in the Lord (Prov 19:18). part of that training comes into play
if i mess up when i mess up. they need to see what it looks like to make it right.
so when someone gets angry, we stop. we calm down and we talk about how unrightous anger is sin (unrighteous anger is because i feel wronged, as opposed to righteous anger resulting from me seeing God being wronged). we ask for forgiveness from those we have offended. and we put it behind us, moving forward with the right attitude in place.
and now, i spend much of the day, asking that i might not sin in the first place. that i would learn from my past wrong choices and choose to remain in control of my attitude, depending on God for the strength to get through each moment. prayer will change things...
...and so will the Word.
if i can find where my tape got packed, we have a bunch of verses to hang on the kitchen wall.
"A man's discretion makes him slow to anger,
And it is his glory to overlook a transgression."
"He who restrains his words has knowledge,
And he who has a cool spirit is a man of understanding."
"He who is slow to anger is better than the mighty,
And he who rules his spirit, than he who captures a city."
"Keeping away from strife is an honor for a man,
But any fool will quarrel."
"A fool always loses his temper,
But a wise man holds it back."
oh, how i love these little ones. even when it's hard.
and, i bet God says the same thing about me lately.