i am a very indecisive person. ask my sister. she'll tell you. that being said, the bigger the decision, the harder it is for me. thankfully i have a Heavenly Father who holds all things in His hands and directs my steps according to His perfect plan. oh, what a mess i would be if i didn't cling to that fact!
and right now, Nick and i are house hunting. and that's a very big decision to make!
we found something with potential that Nick is totally into, but i'm... waffling. i'm working my way through the pro's and con's & making lists of things that would need to be done a.s.a.p. and other things that we would do later. i'm researching and hunting to see if i could turn this 1978 house into something fun with personality & quirk, rather than just UGLY.
pages of lists and sketches to see if this house is something that we could call home for the next many years (Lord willing).
and the hardest part of working my indecisive mind through life changing decisions is simply that life does not stop happening. while 3 hours on the computer would be amazing to research and hunt and try and organize my thoughts, there is still supper to be made, diapers to be changed, errands to be run, clothes to be washed, and a list of other things.
the decision needs to be made and needs to take effort and organization to get there.
and we can't live off of crackers and peanut butter in the mean time... can we?? no, as happy as my little boys would be, that's not a good option.
so some things go undone while i try to pray my way into a peaceful outcome that will impact the way we live & serve for the next many years.
in short, sorry i haven't been here... i'm mulling things over.